He Will Deliver

I have so much to talk about and my heart and mind are so full. I don't have complete clarity and I know God will reveal His plan in His time. I am slowly beginning to filter through the layers of thoughts and images that are far from transparent since leaving the prison on Sunday. My life literally feels different now. Sunday was supposed to be the end. In my mind, I was coming full circle in a process that began so many years ago. I knew God had led me to this point and prepared me for the moment. I have always heard the statements that "God can do big things. God can move people in big ways." And I do believe it. It just has never exactly happened to me. While I was sitting in the room with my mother, God made it "happen to me in a big way." She is my mother. I am her son. This is a bond created only by God. The evil in the past did not destroy that bond for me. I am completely aware that her past actions do not reflect the actions of loving mother. Again, it was not conditional forgiveness. It was not based on what she could or could not offer me. Could she have manipulated my emotions? Absolutely. But it was worth the risk. I prayed for discernment and truth and I believe God showed me what was real. I serve a God who shows mercy. I serve a God who loves unconditionally. I serve a God who speaks the truth.

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