One of the biggest discussions we have had in the last couple of weeks is about my expectations. Do I have any expectations in visiting mom? Do I have any expectations in sharing this blog? What do I expect to come out of all this? I expect the visit with mom to be overwhelming, emotional, intimidating, and painful. I can only hope after it is over that I will be able to put a lot of anxiety to rest but I really don't know what to expect. At the end of the day, it is all in God's hands anyway. Revealing all of this to our friends and family has actually brought relief. This has been a big lesson in allowing others to see my weaknesses and admitting I need help to make it through the coming weeks. My wife and I have always been very private people. We did not make this decision based on a random idea or thought. We spent many months praying and asking God to use my past in a way to witness to others. We still don't have a lot of clarity about the future but we have to turn it all over to God before we step foot out of the bed every morning. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. " Jeremiah 29:11
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"Consider it pure joy whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4
Stephen, I have never stopped praying for you and Brian over the last 24 years. I know that it is by the grace of God that the two of you are mature, healthy, well-adjusted husbands and fathers today. I was there when it all happened, and I was there afterwards through all the pain and trauma that had to be worked through. I have seen God bring you through so much and provide for you in such glorious ways. This I know: He did not bring you this far to desert you now. If you feel led to take this courageous step, He will see you through it and ensure healing on the other side. Just be open to the healing He brings, as His plan might not look exactly like yours. I will of course continue praying for you and your family.
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