Letting Go and Living By Faith

How did I not recognize the bondage with a grip so tight on my life? Maybe because I didn't want to recognize it. Maybe because I chose to keep my eyes shut. For so many years I felt responsible for people and situations which ultimately were impossible for me to control. I felt a pressure to hold everything and everyone together. I don't know that it was a pressure from any specific outside source or a pressure I put on myself. Regardless of the source, it was real and it was a heavy weight that I chose to carry for a long time. I have this picture in my head of God walking patiently beside me with his arms outstretched just waiting for me to surrender that heavy load over to Him.

When I submitted to God's will and made the decision to visit Mom I realized the necessity to relinquish the burden. Not only had I been denying God's will for my life, but I also had been denying God's will for other people's lives. The lives I felt accountable for and obligated to keep secure. I know now that my responsibility is to allow God to use me and to be willing to submit my life for His will. God provides the peace and security. God sets the timetable for all events.

Acts 1:7 "It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority." I am trusting in God's timing for my life and the lives of others. I don't always understand His timing but I trust His timing. I will take another step and continue to live by faith.